Overthinking

Finally done with exams. Ok that was actually one week ago, but ohwells it feels lik just yesterday. Cuz I’ve been slacking my life away and with that I mean that I haven’t been watching any dramas/variety shows nor have I been doing my project (which I should). I’ve just been sleeping, lying in bed n helping with the painting of our walls for a bit.

BUT! I’ve finally finished up the whole of 응답하라 1997/Reply 1997. YAY! Now there’s still 49 days left. Arghz.

Hoya with the doggie cuz both are so cute ^^

Reply 1997 is ooooohhhhhh so good. So nostalgic since the flashbacks were based in the 90s, although the flashing forward and back and forth was a tad bit confusing at parts that I had to rewind and also rely on the deconstructing of the drama on dramabeans. I liked that the whole drama isn’t too focused on the love part, as in the love between lovers kinda love, but instead encompasses all kinds of love like the love of parents for their children, sibling love etc. And it even adds a twist with a guy-guy possible pairing which most viewers totally wouldn’t mind either, cuz it was so sweeeeettt =) Love the focus on family for several parts of the drama, carn stop my tears, no T.T *cries into pillow* for other dramas I’ll bawl my eyes out simply because the lead is also crying and I find the other lead so stupid for not doing _____ but for this drama, I end up tearing at parts where the characters are far from crying, just simply sharing their life stories. Like even though it was obvious that the dad doesn’t succumb to cancer or anything like that (we have already seen him alive and kicking in 2012), when he was diagnosed and all back in the 90s, still couldn’t help it at parts. AND the whole drama was so short! 16 episodes which in total I think around 16 hours at most only since each episode except for the last two were around 30-45 minutes long kind. It’s a “sitcom” after all.

Ok for more serious stuff.

Exams. Really regret taking certain mods instead of others I could have taken this sem. In comparison, the past year exam papers seem much easier, but then they always do, until u’re like ½ weeks away from the exams and trying the paper for urself, and then when u’re facing the paper on the actual D-Day itself. But then again, carn do anything to change anything. Split milk. Can only wipe up the mess and buy a new carton. Or just stave off milk.

21 December 2012 – That’s in 9 days. Carn even have xmas?! But seriously, when I do say that I wish for the world to end, sometimes I mean it. Cuz human beings don’t seem deserving of this planet. We are at each other’s throats all the time. But then again, who could help it? This is what competition does and what natural selection does I guess. But at times, you witness, experience stuff that literally “restores faith in humanity” only for it to be destroyed again once you turn your head away =-= 

 

On another note, it’s actually just a whiny me wanting to shrink responsibility from making big decisions and making my transition into official adulthood. Which I am not ready for. At all. Wanna run away from that. Studying in school really seems much much easier. Realizing that I have known certain friends for like almost 10 years and counting now really makes me feel OLDDDDD though I know 5 years down the road, I’ll look back and think that I was foolish then (2012) when I still wasn’t THAT old and should have been enjoying every moment of my life. Haiz. Cuz that’s exactly what I am doing now. Reminiscing (acc to google this seems to be the correct spelling, im puzzled and confused too) the “me” 5-10 years ago (not too far off from what the Reply 1997 characters did) and thinking how I should have not worried about random stuff but instead focus on enjoying myself like I could at that young age. Tsk tsk.

Wanna do something exciting but I never have the guts to do so and I end up focusing on what I can, studies and studies. Now I am wondering where all that led me. And if I’m actually doing anything productive in my life that I would actually like and be proud of it when I look back. I do like some of the stuff I’m learning and doing at the moment but not ALL of it and I do get my kick out of scoring well but that’s about it. I do not feel strongly about stuff I do, learn etc. N I dun think that’s gonna help me for any interviews. And as much as I want to prove to all those interviewers that actually those that had acted the part well most probably cannot do the actual work well when the time calls for it, I most probably cannot even get myself past the interviewing stage to do that. Your grades will only get you that far, to the interviewing round. Then when you are unable to adapt and show the interviewers a side of you (fake or real aside) they desire in a future employee, you are out of the game. N that’s one of the reasons I hate adulthood, the job, the career you’re supposed to have for life. N all that for what? Money to survive in this world. Not to do what you really like. Cuz sometimes stuff you love doesn’t pay well or isn’t even enough to get you and your family through daily life. So what’s the use? It’s like we work for happiness (wealth, stability) but in the process, we also discard our own happiness (doing what we really desire). Ironic and frustrating. Then again, this is just old me whining “it’s not fair” when actually I could get off my butt to do something about it. But I’m just afraid. I like stability and I do like where I am right now, though I do get unhappy if I think about the past and all the “what ifs”. But if I had made other choices in my life, who knows, I might still be hating that choice and perhaps regretting it even more. I could have not studied when I was younger and most probably now I would have lesser career choices. For some things, more means better and this is one of the things. You can never have too many choices. Sure you can have one hell of a headache deciding but that kinda suffering is better than being limited and left with no choice. Right now, in an act of rebellion, I’m having thoughts of highlighting my hair in different colors. Crazy thoughts that once again, I do not dare to carry out in action when I start to overthink and consider all the consequences I could face – possible rejections from jobs etc.

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Maybe I should just stop thinking, and start doing, and living.

Busy........procrastinating

Almost a month since I last posted anything. Got a few drafts of posts about food places and very cui food pictures but not yet ready. I shall compile, one fine day, then publish as one uber long and overwhelming post.

School. But not exactly heavy workload. I can handle it. And I am slacking quite a bit throughout the week so I wouldn't say that I am stressed about tt. The sources of my stress now and then is 1) when I come to the realisation of all the stuff that I should have started on/done, 2) when I wake up from random loooooonnnnnggggg naps (maybe they shouldn't be called naps) and feel damn angry with myself thinking about the stuff I could have accomplished in that same amount of time, 3) when I experience (1) or (2) and end up using a "Since I've done it, I should just continue down the road of destruction and despair" philosophy with the rest of my day and at the end of it, feel even angrier with myself. =-= Really boils down to my procrastination.

While procrastinating (like now), I feel happy until I feel pangs of (1) then the regret kicks in and then (3) and I go back to my procrastinating state =( what is this?!

That was just a random video I took at Changi Airport Terminal 1. To make this post less dull.
Its an art installation called "Kinetic Rain". I couldn't help but wonder what the code written for this is like.

Watched 2 more episodes of '49 days' as I figured that that would at least make it more worthwhile then watching and rewatching youtube MVs. That has become a habit for this year. I go online thinking I need to do some research or check my email and go onto youtube as well just to enjoy some music while I work. But I always end up watching the MVs that I have watched before - procrastination level 100.

'49 days' is just getting better and better. Everytime that awesome song plays in the background, I cry a bucket of tears T.T because the plot is so heart-wrenching at that point in time and the soulful melody and sad lyrics just pushes me off the cliff into my own ocean of tears. Now at the end of episode 10, we are left hanging with Jihyun wanting to give up the remaining of her 49days (around 28 days left I think) because she sees no hope and then suddenly she "magically" obtains a pure tear from someone who 100% truly madly deeply loves her. The audience is made to think its Hankang since the scene right before was focused on him. But I'd like to think it was someone else, as Hankang is a super possible candidate for the 3 tears mission and I would like to see Jihyun clear those harder targets first so that the last days would be more of a breeze. Bitter before sweet. But then again, seeing how dense Jihyun is, I think she might not know how to make Hankang's tears appear >.< *slaps forehead*

Ok, there. I feel much better ranting to a computer about my own procrastination while doing the act itself. What a hypocrite. And I feel even much better gushing about '49 days' to my computer =D I need to get back to work. Soon, heh heh.

49일

Been watching this drama "49 days" or "49일" these few days. Chanced upon this drama thanks to one of its OST songs that I heard on radio. Such a heart-wrenching song.

Synopsis or maybe just spoilers (since I'm like telling most of the story)::: 

Shin Ji Hyun is a princessy only child who is about to get married to her beloved boyfriend-cum-fiancé Kang Min Ho when she got into an unfortunate accident. This accident was somehow caused by a stranger Song Yi Kyung who has been living her life like a zombie for the past 5 years and tried to commit suicide but failed to do so and inadvertently caused a pile-up along the same road that Shin Ji Hyun had her accident later on. As it was not yet her time to die, the soul reaper or Scheduler as called in the drama gave her an option to try to stay alive (her body was comatose) by collecting 3 drops of PURE tears that prove a person's true love for her within 49 days. Some conditions were laid out though. She could not approach any people related by blood to her and she was to use Song Yi Kyung's body as a host (during her sleeping hours) to do what she needed to. As she had to earn what she wants to spend, Shin Ji Hyun (in Song Yi Kyung's body) took up a part-time job at her childhood friend Han Kang's cafe. Han Kang happens to have a huge crush on Shin Ji Hyun but have kept it under wraps and distanced himself from her as he is too late. Plus her fiancé Kang Min Ho is a hyung he met while studying abroad.

Initially, Shin Ji Hyun thought that it was going to be easy as she could find her fiancé as well as her two best friends, Shin In Jung and Park Seo Woo, for those 3 tears. But as the story unfolds, it turns out that it is not that easy after all as Shin In Jung has been going out with Kang Min Ho for a long time and was in cahoots with him in planning the downfall of Shin Ji Hyun's dad's company. Marrying her was part of the plan. It all gets more confusing as over time, both Kang Min Ho and Han Kang starts to fall in love with Shin Ji Hyun in Song Yi Kyung's body. Thing is, Shin Ji Hyun is trusting and dimwitted at best and so she is just basically very blur about all these although up to the point I have watched, it seems that she has come to realise that Kang Min Ho is falling in love with her/Song Yi Kyung.

L to R: Shin In Jung, Scheduler, Song Yi Kyung, Han Kang, Shin Ji Hyun, Kang Min Ho

HAHA this drama is super awesome. It isn't tear-jerking or anything (the characters do a lot of crying though, n its sorta making me numb). Each episode is around 1 hour or so and it isn't too draggy or too rushed, the timing is very nice and enough is covered each episode. AND I'VE ONLY WATCHED LIKE 8 EPISODES?! Compare this to Secret Garden hmpf, duno why I wasted my time watching SG man...it was so draggy and the first part was boring. And yet people were raving about it =-= I think it's due to the cast members. SG has Hyun Bin and Ha Ji Won, enough eye candy. 49 days has Nam Gyuri who is like a doll, and rightfully so, cause her plastic surgery is far too extensive =-= the female lead (Song Yi Kyung's body which has Shin Ji Hyun's soul in it) Lee Yo Won is not exactly very pretty. She's tall but I don't think she has a very attractive vibe and her shoulders are not very wide, not that it's not good but I think she will look nicer with wider shoulders...there is Jung Il Woo as the Scheduler but eh his nose looks plastic too. Jo Hyun Jae (as Han Kang) is not bad too but he feels old for me and I still think something somewhere must be fake haha, this nagging feeling that only Lee Yo Won is natural enough. And maybe the actor that played Shin Ji Hyun's dad, Shin Il Shik.

I think one of the reasons for this awesomeness is that the characters and their histories are rich and very interesting so the audience have a lot to look forward to each episode. Plus they have their little secrets here and there, their intertwining lives and the whole soul and body belonging to different people thing going on. Damn good scriptwriters. Perhaps this kinda drama works for me - where the first episode seems to start from a certain point in the characters' lives and there are stuff to catch up on, instead of dramas where the audience experience things together with the characters at the same time and there is no secrets or flashbacks to indulge in. Sometimes when there are too many flashbacks it starts to get irritating but not for this drama, because as predictable as some of the flashbacks do get, they fit in nicely with the flow of the drama and thus, no complaints. I need to say it again, DAMN GOOD SCRIPTWRITERS.

I just realised that Secret Garden, 49 days and City Hunter were screened in this chronological order, no overlap. And yet all I heard people raving about was Secret Garden and City Hunter =-= WHY 왜왜왜? I haven't watched City Hunter yet, but I think that 49 days is quite tough to beat with regards to its plot. For the acting, Lee Yo Won is doing a decent job acting as Song Yi Kyung in her zombie-like state as well as the bubbly but dimwitted-at-times crybaby Shin Ji Hyun (albeit still in Song Yi Kyung's body). These two characters have such different personalities haha but Shin Ji Hyun in both her own body and Song Yi Kyung's never fails to make me irritated. Cuz I don't find her antics cute and I hate her crying for almost anything. But I don't hate her haha just irritated, that's all. Up to this point, I do not hate any of the characters though I do dislike some of them for the bad stuff they have done (Kang Min Ho and Shin In Jung) but the scriptwriters are doing a good job making them have reasons for their "evilness" and thus the audience would most probably empathise with them instead of hating any character to the core.

Moral-of-the-story wise, 49 days is showing us the reality of life. Your so-called true friends may not be what they seem and it would take another besides you (or maybe just a different body) to figure that out because some people are just so god damn good in acting. It is a bit sad to think that if there are less than 3 people who truly loves you, your life isn't worth living. I love it when a drama or movie depicts life the sucky way it is and not sugarcoat it and just put in standard bickering and soap drama plots.

If only it was possible to tell if someone really loves you.

arghs and yays

ok wad an eventful week.
start with work...two of us temp staff nearly got into deep shit thanks to ahem. for both of us, ahem made us do the work that others gave her. nice ok THREW us the job, and for my fren she din give specific instructions and somehow the list was indeed inaccurate as my fren already suspected and she had told hte ppl she gave the list to. the list was those floors that were totally vacant so the cleaners cld clear out the kitchen. apparently it seriously is not accurate and a rice cooker and wad not was thrown away. of cuz resident comprain la. say wad how we expect a malnourished guy to shift out blah. ok his email is exaggerating although yea its our fault. and heard frm my fren tt at the meeting htey started to poitn fingers adn all office politics show. i hate adults. and i dun wanna become one. then now the poor uncle who my fren gave the list to became like the main target liddat. bt heard he most prob doesnt care if he gets fired cuz he's migrating. so shuangs sia. and heng for my fren at least she's a temp. adn aft this incident she wanna leave immed. and now my case, ahem threw mi a printed email and ask mi to call a resident and ask her whne she wanna move out so we cld offer her ppl to help her shift her stuff adn she din give mi her num although she claims that she called the resident b4. ok no prob i can just check it on the system. so i called and cfmed timing to be wed 8pm. n i forogt if i told her specifically that it was WEDNESDAY 8pm but im sure i said 8pm, and i wrote it on the printed email "wed 8pm" and handed it to her personally. and she went ot tell the ppl to go up that very nite to help her. of cuz the girl stun la. then she still dare tell mi the following morn in that "hey are u doing ur job? wad is tis?" tone that the cleaners went up and was rejected, the resident say nvr say this timing. OBVS. eyes paste stamp ah. anw yea these all ahppened in like the first day last week. sianed.
ok then wed came. the interview. ahha duh i din get it. frm the way i answered stuff. at first im liek super mad at them for asking weird technical qns but then agn, i was too stoopid that i cldnt answer those suepr easy maths qn =.= too confused halfway thru the interview le. totally not liek wad i expected. but good la, they noe that im not interested in research too. so now i realise that my brain is really deteriorating and i nid help haha. so i shld be thankful to those profs rite...=.= thinking how i shld rot away my life aft i stop my work. haiz...i dun wanna grow up!

ohya bad things aside! on a sidenote, CHANNEL U IS GONNA SHOW ABSOLUTE BOYFRIEND!!! *screams* on 19 june if im not wrong
ABSOLUTE BOYFRIEND (ZETTAI KARESHI) is adapted frm a manga of the same name and well...hmm i pity the guys inside both the manga nad hte drama but i pity different ones in the two. for the manga, i pitied the childhood friend Soshi/浅元 cuz he like like the girl so much but she only care for the robot liddat..so sad..then for the drama, its liek the opposite, like Riiko although loves hte robot too it seems as though she mroe connected with Soshi than Night(robot) in teh drama. so i pity Night in the drama plus he looks so naive i feel so sorry that he's doing stuff she wun appreciate. ohya nad the diff in the two vers is that the manga is abt high school life liddat. and the drama is abt working class woman. although at first heard that it may nto be as nice due to the change in teh basic plot + its hard to act out being a robot so dunno how it'll be like. but it was quite nice. mebe a diff feel but thats good. cuz if it were supposed to be exactly the same, its hard to act out the ahem scenes in the manga and then there'll be the expectations to meet as usual. so catch it on TV if u haven or go watch on9. i scared channel U will destroy the drama agn. =.=

MANGA (l-t-r: Soshi, Riiko, Night the robot)


Soshi!!! *drools over bespectacled guys* HAWT


haha the mini Night Tenjo when he was under repair so cute! think this was the first comic(of this series and of all comics) that i read. borrowed frm fren during sec sch ahah but din complete it. onyl completed last yr borrowed frm cece and watched teh drama as well.


erm ok this is Night when he first reached Riiko, gift wrapped free of charge. and naked =.=


the drama vers. and the guy who act as Soshi(the most right) is like hte same guy who acted in Hana Kimi jap drama as the playboy senior Nanba who has a gay liking him. haha i mistook him for the Arashi guy who acted as Domyouji Tsukasa in Boys over flowers jap drama b4...they look somehow alike but oso not that alike. this actor(Mizushima Hiro) is shuaier than that Matsumoto Jun guy frm BOF and omg Mizushima Hiro looks actually much better in his dramawiki pic which i just found haha and he's younger than Matsumoto Jun too. N the other robot inside the show that is supposed to be a replacement robot series is acted by the same guy as the one hwo act as one of hte F4 in BOF jap vers eh...the one who owns the mafia. akira sth...and ok now im pretty freaked out. WAD??!! Ayaka is Mizushima Hiro's WIFE?! ahem.....ok i was gonna put her song here anyway and wow tis is quite a revelation. Ayaka sung the OST for this drama. called Okaeri/back home. and its very nice and sweet. ok wow im still in shock. ok and now more omg, ayaka is only 1987 born?! htats like...22 this yr?! and tehy got married this yr only!!! SHOCK SHOCK SHOCK no wonder i dun rmb seeing this in dramawiki b4 when i was checking out the drama details. wow ok she's down with soem illness called Grave's disease. and wow the symptoms are too many and i think i and most of the ppl have soem of these. for eg, INSOMNIA(makes mi think of Craig David and Wheesung), nervousness, fatigue, restlessness, eye pain.....and theres one that is like "protruding eyeballs" haah GOLLUM =.= my preciousssssss.......


ok enuff crap. here is the video with the song okaeri!!! woots! hope the two stay happily married!


ok omg OMG oMG haha there's a special of ABSOLUTE BOYFRIEND ONGOING AT THE MOMENT!!! 11 epsiode special! woots! no ownder channel U is showing the non-special soon haiz...yea! get to relive my sad yet sweet drama!!! :D LOVES~~~~~SQUEALS!!!

disappointing BOF

last night watched the boys over flowers (kkotboda namja 꽃보다 남자) now showing on TV...ohmien im hating this vers more now...with the lan4 dubbing voices whihc sounds super duper GAY n the switching of songs and tunes used inside the drama...dammnnit lor wheres my SHINee's 'Stand By Me'???!!! the songs i heard just now like werent there in the beginning at all?! totally ruin the feel, like the songs actually used in the drama were much nicer n fit the scene more can? n gml just told mi that she heard "my destiny" frm witch yoohee, isnt this blatant plagiarising of some sort? carn KBS or someone sue channel U??? erxin.
ok for those who duno, Boys Over Flowers(BOF) / Hana Yori Dango / Meteor Garden is all abt this stoopid F4 n a girl. heard its the longest running manga or sth, not sure, nvr rly read the manga...now its been made into 3 adaptations so far: taiwanese drama Meteor Garden 流星花園, japanese drama Hana Yori Dango 花より男子(duno why it came out ltr than e tw one when e manga originated frm japan =.=) and now fresh frm the oven korean drama Kkotboda Namja 꽃보다 남자. heard theres supposed to be a chinese one soon too but obvs that wld be the greatest failure.

the three versions so far:


the various cast of each drama(read the flags)

ok so here's my humble opinion.

Meteor Garden was toooooo long ago dun rmb much abt it but rmb i did watch it and i hated the second season when the Michelle Saram or wadeva her name is entered the pic though she wasnt supposed to be a rly bad person i tink. and F4 was rly gay, but Vaness is hot now with shorter hair! since too long ago i carn comment on the plot nor the acting.

jap hana yori dango!!!!! tink the acting was much better compared to krn vers, given tt i cld actually feel the chemistry between Makino and Tsukasa. plot eh...all 3 shld be sama-sama rite. but the arrangement wise tink its quite commendable too each season is short and sweet as all jap dramas are and the pace is not too fast nor slow. only thing is think i read it on wiki, said their movie special called hana yori dango final or sth was high on movie ratings and ppl liked it. i din rly liek it much, mebe cuz i watched the final b4 i watched the 2 seasons of drama =.= looks wise they suffer. All 4 of them are not rly typical shuai ges but the 2 male leads grow on me as the show continues.

ah ok the one i watched last nite..best in terms of eye-candy. yes yes alot of ppl say the male lead in krn vers (Goo Jun Pyo acted by Lee Minho) looks like the male lead in tw vers (Dao Ming Si acted by Jerry Yan). i think the krn one is much hotter woots! of cuz minus the ahjumma curls. and Kim Hyun Joong (acting as Hanazawa Rui/Yoon Jihoo) and Kim Kibum (acting as Soujiroh/So Yi Jeong) are cute too!! Ignore the long hair for Kim Hyun Joong in the beginning, he looks better near the end. ohya tt reminds mi, i carn believe that channel U's opening got show a short scene with him putting his clothes on erps its obscene and its not hot thank you. ok acting wise erps, mostly fail for the leads. Kibum is ok in here leh not much scenes to fa hui. Hyunjoong is lifeless and i dun get how u can hear soemone on the phone with that thing on ur head?!

Geum Jandi is like hmm sometimes acting overboard so no comments tho i noe there r haters out there. on e other hand, think those minor char act even better mebe cuz they're veterans or sth? plot wise super sucky. arrangement of the scenes are luan4 they jump here and there then reappear at same scene the next epsiode whne everyone has forgotten. good hors. seriously must watch at one go liddat then replay to catch the stuff u missed. ohya realised channel U got cut some scenes i tink. either that or i was too bored and din pay attn. last nite one hor did they show the part when Jihoo answered the qn that Geum Jandi cldnt answer Goo JunPyo? JunPyo asked wad on earth cannot be bought with $$ n Jihoo suposedly said Air. got show that scene not? in my memory no leh. ok to make the whoel thing worse, channel U stops the scenes and cuts into adverts at weird parts liddat, or mebe i too used to watching on9 w/o interruption or wad.

ok time for some videos! i tried to dig up good ones with nice songs but eeyer...ok here goes
TAIWAN VERS



abt this song...theres a krn vers one leh! and my dear sungmin covered it..think nid to hear in HQ..


JAPANESE VERS

SEASON 1 opening

SEASON 2 opening

KOREAN VERS

hmm this opening seems to be much shorter than that on TV

T-max's "Paradise" which seems to be the theme song

see? in here they only show Jihoo buttoning up his shirt. how mild, compared to that one shown on TV arghz im disgusted by that scene.