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Saturday, June 12, 2010

confessions of a workaholic

Golden Rule @ work: be neutral

i just recently got permanently transferred to some other dept at work since work is slack at our dept haiz duno if i shld say i like it or not. one, im separated from the others, be it for better or worse. two, the workload aint much different though i have more stuff to do at this new dept, i mean, its not really working the full 8.5 hours de feel. three, i do get my own desk here so perhaps it seems more woah =-=

im really trying to work things out about myself. argh im an A-hole. i carn stand others n then i join them. wad crap. but i carn stand being unfairly treated so as a means of overcoming that, i become one of them. n i loathe myself for that.

i dunno how u think that its so right for u to get pissed/pretend to be pissed at everything. pls la, ure older than me, have some sense, would ya? then i really get pissed then u act like im the one at fault when u were the one throwing tantrums for god knows wad. n u totally cheated money thru that timesheet didnt u =-= everytime come late but din consider to write down even one day that u came in late. n u had to write down a full days pay when u came only half day rite? good game.

u arent angelic although u do look innocent enough usually, except that ive seen through ur antics. ure plain scary. u attempt to sound nice by saying i do things fast but obvs theres a reason why im doing things faster than all of you - cuz i dun slack while doing work (until recently, argh i hate myself. wad a hypocrite). n when i tell u that to the face, u give mi a glare. yea it is indeed intimidating but im not gonna look scared cuz i noe im not wrong in saying so. the irony is that when i first began slacking to ι…εˆ u guys, u made a comment asking why i always reading that ebook. come on, who started the slacking trend. aft i reminded u of ur ebuddy/facebook/sms-ing/watching videos at work trend, u shut the hell up, but not b4 giving me a slight stare. well, at least u know when to stop talking. thank you for that.


sometimes i dont really get how ppl get along with each other. i mean, why they carn tolerate each other? i think its a case of, u sorta dun like that person n get prejudiced against them as wad i do sometimes. they start to see only bad stuff abt the person n the worst thing is, its not a one-sided thing. its like both sides are prejudiced against each other so how do they reconcile? EVER? n then theres the prob of pointing fingers. now many ppl wan to leave n i dun really feel like staying on beyond july either. i really seriously do wan to help out during the mass check-in cuz well they carn go find ppl n train them on short notice either but none of my colleagues like continuing so...n i dunwan to be the stupid one who always think that the company so kelian n need help so stay late or work longer to help out, when others are making up excuses to escape the busy period after they have slacked n sucked enough money. i seriously think their management needs some serious counselling. lik they comprain abt wad budget tight dun wan to hire alot of ppl. but its themselves dunno how to utilise resources. n then there are still work to be done but its done at a slow rate too and the permanent staff n temp staff are both slacking. im assuming its also cuz lik my mindset of u slack, ok lor i slack oso, so that i dun 吃亏 =.= haiz...revenge is sweet but oso haunts u, making u guilty, if u have a conscience at all, that is.

ok self-note. stop trying to spite them. argh be honest to urself n others. but hide things that are appropriate for hiding of cuz. im lik just doing all talk. cuz i find it hard to trust them now n i dun think i will stop slacking like they are either, cuz well, i also dun really have much to do, although ive been asking my new dept if i need to help them. there are the occasional stuff but its not continuous for long, unlike the prev dept. so when nothing else i shall just slack since i have no choice. at least i can say that im better than them in that i do not dun ask for work when i know fully that theres stuff to be done. n neither do i watch others do work while i watch videos. god i hate that. worse is that even aft i had to play the evil part n ask u to help out, u had be thick-skinned n wait a while b4 going up to find some GODDAMN MINOR JOB n loudly claim that u found something to do. and 3minutes later. yes THREE. not even FIVE. u finished, obviously since its such a small thing. then u go back to watching videos. n then when ppl come in, ure in engrossed in ur vid that u dun realise ppl are entering. only aft i insist to look away frm the person/direct them to u do u look up n act surprised. no nid to get so engrossed in ur videos can. i carn even get engrossed in my ebook if i wan to cuz i still carn put my mind totally off work. this is not doing mi any good T.T i shld go for therapy. im taking up psychology man...then try to psycho these ppl into doing some work.