for quite long le actually...but i feel so empty haiz...has always felt empty aft exams since entering uni but then this sem is lik e worse cuz first of all, there isnt any work for mi to keep myself busy with n by work i mean lik the paying work + e hols r longer n i dread it even more arghz how m i to survive two more years so sian already...n sometimes while studying i start to think lik why e hell m i studying? as in like both studying n oso studying of this particular course, doesnt seem to interest mi much. but at times when i do well/understd/kai qiao on a topic all of a sudden, will have tt adrenaline rush n think tt wow i actl like it =-= so wad is this man...just aimlessly floating ard liddat
nw, yet agn, i feel like coming up with a list of to-do things, however, i did exactly tt last year, to no avail. i did lik NOTHING on tt list. so im thinking might as well bring the list to this year agn haha n see myself fail terribly =-= but...i have no reason to NOT do any of this stuff this yr, cuz im not working so i shldnt be THAT busy. but its alwaes hard to start. n once u start n gain the momentum u dun wanna stop. its lik aft exams then u start thinking tt shit i SOOOO wanna study, gives mi satisfaction haha but too late. n this time its worse cuz i did lik 6 papers in 7 days, no rest T.T n so even when my momentum starts kicking in haha too late le, exams ending already...
this sem...
is boring
is unmotivating (is there such a word?)
is stressful (for no reason or rather no good reason, ie stress i bring upon myself, which im starting to realise i do v v often)
is busy (yet agn, perhaps for all e wrong reasons)
is screwed (i dun rly wanna noe my results)
hopefully, i get a wakeup call, but not such a rude one. a slight one will do.
